I really suck at blogging, but I think it might be a nice way for me to write down our life and our thoughts, or more like MY thoughts (april). Nate definitly does not blog. LOL. We are coming up on our 5 year anniversary this August! 5 years...WOW...it feels like just yesterday that I married my best friend. We have had some great times, some great trips, great laughs and great memories. We have also gone through a few difficult times too. We were suprised with a baby in January 2011...but 11 weeks into the pregnancy, we miscarried. It was tough, because no matter how long you are pregnant...the minute you find out, you become attatched to the baby and the idea of the baby. Since the baby was a surprise, we were not fully ready and prepared for a baby...so we did not get pregnant again right away. We felt like we were given a chance to really get things prepared in our lives. Like a house. At the time we were living in a one bedroom apartment. Not really the most ideal place to bring home a baby to. In September of 2012 we decided to start our family. We were very excited, and found out a month later that we were expecting our first little Nielsen. A few months later we found out it was a BOY!! I was so excited. Nate was extatic! We started right away with the nursery. We decided to go with the theme of Airplanes. Nate loves planes and it just seemed perfect for baby Nielsen. The room was perfect. It was so fun putting it all together. We decided to name our little guy Houston. Nate served his mission in Houston Texas...and we just think that name would be so cute for a baby, and also for an adult when he grows up. We had a few baby showers, and a few more scheduled. Baby showers are way more fun than wedding showers, thats my opinion! So exciting planning and preparing for this litle human to arrive. We reached 32 weeks when we were given the most devestating news. Our baby no longer had a heartbeat. We gave birth to Houston Todd Nielsen on April 30 2013, as a stillborn. Hardest thing we have ever had to do. Its been 4 weeks since that awaful moment when we found out, and my heart hurts just the same if not more. Its hard, because not only was it a depressing sad time, it was also a joyful and happy time. We have a son. His name is Houston, and he is out first baby. Our first child. Ours. We are so grateful to have him for a son. We are sad not to be able to raise him in this life, but have faith that we will get that chance when this life is over. Instead of waiting a few months, we will just have to wait a few years. We know he is keeping watch over us, and over his siblings who will soon join this family. He will forever be a leader in this family. His special spirit has touched so many all ready, and I know he will continue to touch our lives as long as we live. We love him very much, and cant wait to hold him again soon. We are anxious to bring baby #2 down to earth. Our rainbow baby...because as we all know, rainbows follow a storm.